Last night, Today, blah blah
Last night was my younger brother Paul's Birthday.
We went over to Paul's place. Both our family and his in-laws were over. First time for me to meet his father in-law and one of his sister in-law's.
I think my brother is a bit nervous around his Gay Brother in-law and partner, as he always makes Gay jokes.
Anyway, my younger brother has suddenly caught the Artistic bug. My mother and I searched high and Low for an art book whcih was actually informative, as a lot of them are just full of crap. If you are into art you'll know what I mean. There are GOOD art books (which actually are helpful) and other ones which seem to be Art Teachers ways to make money on the side, as they don't actually include much useful information nor do they actually do good paintings in them.
I'm inclined to write my own art book one day, but I have a fear it might end up in the second category. lol
I was discussing with my youngest brother Jeff where he'd like to go on holiday (as people have suggested he get out and see the world a little). I thought Europe, or Malaysia, but he doesn't want to leave the country. So I suggested Cairns.
For some unknown reason, my mother got all upset of the conversation! Weird! Then she insisted that we all go on holiday somewhere down south for a few weeks. Like ewwwww! Actually, she wants to do the TreeTop Walk, which we had been planning as a day trip.
The party was fine ... oh, it was supposed to be a surprise, but my brother Paul came home early before everyone had arrived.
We got home, and my brother Jeff and I discussed today. We were hoping to work on some painting, and made plans. My mother over heard us.
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Got up this morning and was doing some walking and self improvement psychology stuff on myself (which my mother considers BRAINWASHING MYSELF), but it involves techniques for removing things from your past which have been brainwashed into you and are holding you back.
A lot of the things I am trying to remove is some self destructive behaviour I have and the fact that my family have always put me down & belittled my achievements.
The sort of things I mean are:
- I get 'A' grades and they make out anyone can do that.
- My elder brothers hard earned 'C' grades were considered a greater achievement.
- I was on the state team for Gridiron, so the make out it's nothing.
- My father always told me I would be a failure.
- My mother ALWAYS interupts me when I'm thing to study or work.
- My father used to tell everyone I was gay.
- My parents used to get my brothers and sisters to make jokes about me (especially gay jokes)
- My parents through me out of home at nineteen
- I was supposed to have been born a GIRL, but somehow I stuffed up their plans. (There are even PINK things from when I was young that they got!)
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